“Get out from your house, from your cave, from your car, from the place you feel safe, from the place that you are. Get out and go running, go funning, go wild, get out from your head and get growing, dear child.”
In the last couple of days I’m lack of patient, easily get angry, and find it hard to finish what I am starting.
I have troubles understanding my feelings and the way my soul works, so actually how could I possibly expect anybody else to understand me?!
Lately I was so proud to be balanced, happy and full of self-confident, while I see only a big mess when I look at myself now.
But I know nothing is constant in life, which means, I shouldn’t feel bad about my varied moods.
Especially now that we are standing before big changes, most definitely giving up everything to move to a foreign country is having a huge effect on the mind.
I always loved traveling, I’m basically all the time preparing for a new adventure, even if it’s just a mini weekend vacation. The best times of my life were the moments I spent somewhere far away from my home, in a different environment with new people and traditions.
But I easily forget the dark sides. It’s never easy to spend time away from your home and no matter how much fun you have, I guess we all have homesick sooner or later. It’s hard to live an everyday life somewhere you can not use your mother language and you’ll always have to work there a little harder to show how good you are.
So, it seems I just forgot about these things and haven’t allowed myself some time to feel worried.
Being 100% happy about our choice doesn’t mean we can not be a bit frightened.
I don’t think it’s possible to have absolutely no doubts.
Doubts are helping us to choose the right choices and to stay on the right way.
Some days I wake up and I feel I can rule the World. Some days I open my eyes and I feel I have no energy at all. Sometimes my inner child just wants to stay under the cover and waiting for me to tell, everything will be ok.
It’s all about balance, sometimes I lose it, but the next moment I get up and start everything all over again. That is life, and it’s all perfect the way it is! x